Had a GREAT day!!! Felt really high and happy today hahaha. Though I don't know why I lost my appetite...

Here are some pics!

We went jamming together!!! FUN! Great company~ :)

Sharmagne and Seow Shi

Some of us went down to celebrate Darren's birthday! (The more INTENSE you wish for something, the faster your wish can come true! Lol...)

Birthday boy!

Vincent the Manhunt guy HAHA..

Steph is so cute! :)

 

Music makes my day!!!!!!! Love to hang around with like-minded people too!

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On a heavier note, I HATE GOSSIPS. Don't talk to me if you're gonna gossip!!! It just gets on my nerve to hear bad stuff about so-and-so.

Firstly, I don't have to know.
Secondly, it's boring to me.
Thirdly, it's unhealthy to my mind and soul.

I'd rather be known as the self-ostracized than to be involved. Some people gossip to feel secure about themselves...

Pst Kong: When  you bring someone down, you make yourself APPEAR higher.

Some people join in to gossip to feel a sense of belonging in a group. I'd rather not belong to that group.

Yes, when 2 agree on something, there is power. Power to build and likewise, power to destroy.

I just hate gossips. Period.

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School is starting SOON!!!!!!!! :)

Oh it's such a happy day!!!!!!!!!

1) Woke up at 9.20am for my piano lesson which was at 10am. Hehe. Started on my 2nd exam piece and it's quite a fun piece to play too. Hehe.

2) Bid for my module again and I got it for just 1 point! Yay... By the way, there is NO such word as "bidded". Past tense of "bid" is "bid"...

3) Finally went for cello lesson at night! After almost a year of not having... Haha. Nice!!

Well on the way home... I realized something. My music lessons are both at the ENDS of Singapore. Piano is 6 bus-stops away from Boon Lay interchange and Cello 2 stops from Pasir Ris interchange...

For the love of music, I'm willing to go the DISTANCE... Love knows no ending! Waha...

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Side track, talking about uniforms...

My friend just showed me the new army uniform...

http://www.mindef.gov.sg/imindef/
publications/cyberpioneer/news/2008/
September/03sep08_news/03sep08_photos.html

It's unpleasant looking! (Understatement)

And actually nurses aren't supposed to be wearing our uniforms out of the hospital after work. Though it's a common habit here.

It's not because of the fear of having GHOSTS following us home HAHA... But it's for an objective reason which is to prevent the spread of diseases to the public.

Everything in the hospital has to be clean and hygenic. Nurses have to wash our hands after touching every patient (of course not within their sight) if possible. I washed mine SO many times @ St. Luke's. And there are actually SEVEN steps in a medical handwash.

We are taking the old saying "Prevention is better than cure" LITERALLY!

:)

Here I am again.

I've just checked my bidding result and I DIDN'T GET THE MODULE!

For us, we have only 500 points to play around with. And the winning bid for the music module that I wanted was 903, and contemporary social issue was 620.

SO...

I'm gonna bid again later...

For

GENES AND SOCIETY.

"The aim of the module is to introduce students to the modern concepts in biology and to enable them to evaluate independently the potential benefits and risks of the biotechnological revolution and its implications for society."

It's still kinda linked to Nursing. My modules for this semester are

1) Physiology
2) Pharmacology
3) Therapeutic Communication (?!)
4) Contemporary Nursing

Those are allocated modules which I don't have to bid for. Yay don't have to see cadavers for this semester. IF I get "genes and society"... My whole semester is so Science and Biology!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGH................................

I like Science and Bio stuff, but it can get congestive sometimes! I need to express my creativity somehow... Like to at least have an Art module which I can read and write more interesting stuff and where there're no right or wrong answers!

I'm good in writing crap sometimes (That's creativity ok...)  so those without specific answers are good for me!!!

Science is too definite!!!!!!!!

:(

And most of my days start at 8AM!!!

So JC?!?! And I thought I'm done with waking up early for school forever. Lol.

Who on earth study at 8am?!?! LOL...

Ok there're plenty but I totally can't imagine now after 3 weeks of waking up LATE... :)

But all my Physiology lectures start at 8am... And that subject is... ='(

 

Well after all the ranting, I'M STILL EXCITED FOR SCHOOL!!!! =) So looking forward!!!! YESSS....

I must do well this semester. Aim to increase my GPA by 1 (under-performed for last semester)... For the sake of the patients I'll be serving in future HAHA...

 

 

Ultimately, I just wanna glorify God in all that I do.

Woo, there's Tattoo Show @ the Singapore Expo from 9th-11th Jan. Which is the next 3 days.  Check out @ www.tattoo.com.sg if you're interested!

I have been thinking of getting one. Perhaps in a more discreet place due to the taboo of having a tattoo and it's not allowed in Nursing as we have to uphold a professional image...... :)

I absolutely think that having a tattoo is something amoral. Will it make my character worse? No! :) But we can't deny there is still a stigma attached to it even in this modernistic time.

Why.................. Oh why...................

 

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Anyway, in the past 5 days, I've been to City Hall 4 times, Esplanade 3 times, met Steph 2 times and Marilyn 1 time.

Haha. Madness. And Steph asked me out again today to the Esplanade AGAIN. Lol... But I wanna stay home toady and do my stuff...

Think I put on some weight during the holiday HAHA.

With a red lipstick, I can become a GEISHA instantly.

With Marilyn just back from Perth.  I wanna go for a backpack trip to Aussie next holiday!!! Perhaps for 2-3 weeks? Anyone?!

I can't believe I actually woke up at 9.45am. It's WAY before my normal waking up time haha. All because of a few smses...

1) Steph - Meeting her AGAIN for lunch 2) Cello teacher - May have lessons with him again... I MUST improve more this year!

So here I am again. :)

I think I've blogged excessively this holiday HAHA. Once semester starts I won't be coming often I guess. And I hope. :)

Before I leave to meet her, here's a video recording that I did earlier...

Yiruma - I

As much as I wanted it to be mistake-free, there is ONE particular note that I played wrongly and that stuck out like a SCARECROW. Argh... And I don't know why my neighbour had to SCREAM at her child as I was recording.

Haha. Anyway, enjoy. And give your feedback if there're things to improve on.

Thanks! :)

 

1 more week to SCHOOL!

I'm excited for it haha. I love school and I don't mind the LONG hours of breaks or staying back late HAHA. Gonna maximize my stay in NUS!!!!!

Although I love my holidays too. =P I'm satisfied with the past 2 weeks of holidays hehe...

Oh and I'm so happy that the course I want is available! Bidding starts on the 7th and I'm so gonna bid for that... It fits nicely into my timetable too.

The module is........

MUSIC IN THE GLOBAL CONTEXT

So at the end of the module, I will learn to appreciate different styles of music more. HAHA. It's under Yong Siew Toh Conservatory of Music! So cool right! =)!

HOPE I CAN GET THAT.................. Though there's totally no link from the course I'm taking, :) it's linked to my life!

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(Chunks of disorganized writings...)

This afternoon Steph told me a news which made my heart skipped a beat and my adrenaline rushed a bit.

If I have wings I swear I could fly!!!! (Eww... Cliche.)

Even as I'm typing, I'm SMILING to myself just thinking of that. (And it's 3+am already)

=)

I am feeling jumpy :D

I love my life!!!!!!!!!!! And I love my dreams SO much I wanna bring them into reality.

Ok the news has something to do with PIANO of course!!! :) My life, my love! But I won't say much yet.

I'm so proud of her. I should be calling her "shi mu" soon!

And btw, I'm happy about the 'origin' of my name! My dad told me he named me after a PIANIST in CHURCH... I didn't know that till I was 16/17?

Maybe he had a crush on her or something? HAHA...

See, I really shouldn't be blogging now... I shall spend tmr practising the piano and cello. YES.

Falling in love with them all over again!!! :)

WOo... Met Meng Ching just now at Holland Village! And I ate the most expensive Nasi Lemak ever... It cost $5.90! Lol.

And while eating, a COCKROACH flew and landed on my back and crawled from RIGHT TO LEFT... I wore a tube dress and so I could FEEL it!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ah. And on Boxing Day while Cai and I were talking on a bench, a LIZARD crawled on my leg!!!!!!!

?!?!

WHY ME!!!!!!!!

I know I said "come what may" in my previous post... BUT NOT SUCH THINGS?! HAHA.

Anyway, after our dinner I brought her to a nice place to chill. It's called "Essential Brew". A cosy cosy place to hang out and talk but NOT recommended for couples to go. Just not the right kind of feel haha.

With her Camomile tea

With my Chocolate ice cream :)

      v(^;^)

Funny background haha.

US! :)

We just kept talkinggggg.... Till there was nothing much to say anymore Haha. Or rather we couldn't think of anything more. :)

She's a great girl! Big-hearted, funny, hardworking, sincere, genuine, direct, strong, godly, understanding, helpful and cute! =)

Happy 2009 to all.
Keep believing.
Keep YOUR dream alive!

Went for a dinner with my mum at Sushi Tei @ Paragon. NICE place! NICE food! =) Cos I was craving for Jap food and was hungry too Haha. Recently I like anything Jap hehe.

Well so on the way home in the train... 2 funny incidents happened within 15 minutes.

1) I was standing and reading a book and a woman came up to me and asked "ARE YOU PREGNANT?" HAHA. OMG. It's either she was blind or cos of the 'airy' dress I wore HAHA!

Then I think she saw me looking at her nail polish on her fingers... Cos it was Purple with glitters and it was just weird on her considering her age. And she said "My nail polish very nice right? Very bright,.." -_- I could only muster up a small "Ya." HAHA, White lie, polka dotted lie whatever! =P

A few minutes later...

2) A woman standing about 4 steps away FAINTED. Surrounding her were all men! And the men's "Ah..." diverted the commuters' attention to that direction. Including mine of course haha. Nurse leh... HAHA!

But this nurse didn't know what to do! =X And anyway she got up on her own after a while and sat on the couple seat. The "poor thing" part wasn't the fainting but the aftermath of it.

The men surrounding her formed a semi-circle and were all staring down at her. Gosh... I know they were concerned but it was kinda intimidated wasn't it?! HAHA. Anyway so since I didn't know what to do and she looked alive, the least I could do was to sit beside her and make sure she was ok and to have at least a female near her...

Now people were looking at ME... Like to see what was I gonna do with her or something? To their despair, the drama ended there. HAHA. I did nothing until we alighted and I offered to carry her stuff... Lol... Well at least something..........

All I can say is... THEY COULD HELP BY NOT STARING. =P

What an interesting night huh...

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And when I reached home, I had to stress over which module to bid for later!!! It's kinda like window-shopping for a module. I short-listed a few but they all clash with my timetable! Argh...

I wanted Jap language or music module but CAN'T... So I decided to take...

Contemporary Social Issues in Singapore

Hopefully I can get that. If not for nursing, I'd have gone to Arts and take Sociology/Psychology/Social Work. But I still can take modules from there. I love NUS! =)

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I'm quite nervous about the bidding actually, never done that before! Haha. And very excited to meet MC later at Holland V! =)

I love holidays!

Anyway, to all primary and secondary school students in W472, no more LATE nights on msn/phone and telling me you're BORED!!!

STUDY HARD!!! (Muahaha...)

Reflection of 2008

As I'm ready to bid 2008 goodbye, there are a few things I remember 2008 for.

The good things

1) Got into NUS after praying and praying... Love that school!
2) Got my 1st laptop - Vaio!
3) Changed CG to W472
4) Rising up in CG
5) Baptized Mon in the HS! - 1st time!
6) Gave my 1st Bible study and subsequently many more
7) Co-hosted for a subzone event - breakthrough!
8) Earned a substantial income @ AIA which sustains me now
9) 1st attachment at St. Luke's Hospital
10) Got out of a relationship
11) Performed for Asia Conference and DBS @  Shangri-la
12) Obtained a Merit for Grade 5 piano exam
13) Distinction for Grade 5 music theory
14) Bridesmaid for Jeff kor's wedding
15) Lost weight!!! (Whether's it's fats or muscle mass, I don't know. =x)

As you can see I did a lot of 1sts on my 21st, so 2008 IS ONLY THE BEGINNING.

And now...

The not-so-good things

1) Cello is still stagnant.
2) Results for 1st Sem is not up to expectation.
3) Only at Grade 6 for piano cos my teacher doesn't want her students to skip any! Maybe it's good...?
4) Got into a relationship
5) Haven't gotten my driving license or taken BASIC theory even... Product of procrastination.
6) My not-so-little brother got into trouble!

And hmmm...

I am stuck. I'm sure there're many not-so-good things which happened! But I can't remember.........

Sooo this is my 2008. =) Not exactly very WOW... Humble beginning! Haha.

Greater things are still to be done.

Unafraid
What's ahead
You are always there before (me)

I feel my life is a teeny bit in danger now but I'm not scared. Come what may yea.

Some people are afraid of death, some are afraid of living. However, when we are convicted that God is IN control, there's really nothing to be afraid of.

Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the LORD your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you.”

Deuteronomy 31:6

Just 2 verses down...

And the LORD, He is the One who goes before you. He will be with you, He will not leave you nor forsake you; do not fear nor be dismayed.”

Deuteronomy 31:8

Isn't that so assuring? I know I can put my trust in God because His promises never fail me. :')

 

When the stage is bare tonight
There's no one else
Just You and me

Christmas is over, the fanfare is through. It is back to the stillness of my room, back to my first love.

When the curtains close behind
There's no pretense
I'm on my knees

Behind closed door, I show Him my weaknesses, I tell Him my fears. He knows me and watches as I cry myself to sleep.

I will lay down my life
For the love sacrifice You gave to me

For the first time last night, this sentence hit me as I laid on my bed singing. I guess I've been self-centered for too long, it's time to look beyond the little dear life that I live.

 

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I'M LOVING MY HOLIDAYS!!!

Not that I did anything special, but with my free time, my love for music grew! I'm practising the piano and CELLO even more now! (Mini breakthrough to even practise cello... =X) And I'm choosing classical music over other genres to listen to... I don't know what happened inside me Haha.

Music is supposed to come freely out of you and I felt kinda suppressed before holidays so it was awful. Sometimes it was demoralizing to even play anything.... So I didn't.

How I wish I can just focus on music...

My ultimate ultimate childhood dream is still very very much alive. That is to be a performing pianist above all else. And I hope I can live long enough to fulfill that dream.

Talking about dreams! Last night I dreamt that  a baby shark bit my hand twice!!! (Ultimate random dream...)

HAHA...

Awww... Have been seeing my beloved Cai on Christmas Eve, Day and Boxing day!

Stayed over her place on the Eve and we stayed up till 4am! We were lying on her couches and talking... Instead of saying a sweet "Goodnight", we said "Shut up" and fell asleep. Haha... My best friend indeed.

And so we woke up at 9am on Christmas Day and had breakfast with her family. SO happy for her!!! Cos her whole family went to church for service! =)

And on Boxing day... I went over to her place again and we went CYCLING. From Chinese Garden, through Jurong East to Bukit Batok Nature Park and BACK. HAHA. Our butts hurt like crazy now HAHA.

Reached her place at 9pm and had dinner... After that we sang some praise and worship songs and she taught me how to lead! So cool.

My perfect date! =)

She's simply AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Best friend forever!!! Lol...

Woo Hoo.... It's CHRISTMAS EVE!

I'm glad the year is ending and the ending is definitely better than the beginning HAHA. Christmas is also a harbinger to a new year and many greater things ahead. Cool~

I'll be doing a reflection of 2008 and goal setting for 2009 with my connect group this weekend. Nice! Though a lot of things which happened in 2008 seem very distant now, due to my bad memory? Haha.

Anyway, went for service just now! It was great! The drama was super funny and happy that 2 of my friends from school joined me too!

Was writing some cards last night, am I disorganized? Haha, I love stickers! I still buy them if I see cute ones like the colourful hearts!!!

 

Many many people for service! =)

Candle lights! 

My 2 friends! Your future nurses. A whole new generation of us is rising up, taking the hospitals by storm. Lol... 

She's so cute! Like a doll hahaha.

"Have yourself.... A merry little Christmas....." =X

 

Bearer of light in a world of darkness.

 

 

I LOVE THIS GIRL!!! My beloved Cai~ =) The one who brought me to church, whom I kept rejecting, yet she kept asking. Hehe. So touched now that I think back... =')

Happy Christmas!

(Written last night...)

Wow today was awesome. Finally had a taste of HOLIDAY...

Went to school to submit some stuff and then headed down to Marina Square to look around for gifts but didn't buy any in the end... Think I'm bad in buying gifts haha. Anyway I'll try again tmr. Last minute Christmas shopping!

Headed down to Esplanade library after that. FINALLY!!!!!!!!!! I miss that place. Used to frequent there... Anyway I brought along a book to read and was listening to Yo-yo Ma. Haha. Trying to get some motivation for cello...

Btw the CDs there now have a special cover which can be locked and unlocked. So to unlock it we have to go to the counter and give your IC no and handphone no. TROUBLESOME.

It used to be that we could just take whatever CDs we wanted and listened within the library. BUT I'd have guessed that people without integrity have stolen a lot of CDs to cause the library to have such measures now. IRRITATING.

And so I read...

And read...

 

AND READ...

Can you see my reflection? =) Haha

Until Steph came...

And we went down for an outdoor performance while the cool wind blew! =)!

Romantic? HAHA!

Bumped into beloved Cai too! =)!

It was simply an awesome day cos I got to spend time alone Haha...

(^;^)v

Wow, guess what?

I woke up at 2pm!!!!!!!

Latest ever in 2008... 2 weeks of attachment has certainly taken a whole lot of me and the 10.5 hours of sleep was a luxury. No dreams or anything, just a total shut down of my body! Cool...

Glad that attachment has ended and holiday has begun!!! FINALLY! I'm so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =) It spells meeting up with friends, chilling and catching up with my piano and cello practices! LOVING IT!!!!

Anyway! If you haven't seen me in my nus nurse uniform and can't possibly imagine............ Here are some pics...

 

Lobby and entrance of St Luke's. Bad shot cos I was rushing to reach on time. Haha.

We worked in the SAME ward! So our shifts were alternate. And AHEM! She was the finalist for NEWFACE 2008!!! Top 20! SO COOL RIGHT... Some guys were already asking me about her when they saw this pic in Facebook. Tsk tsk! HAHAHA...

Us with my clinical preceptor from Philippines.

 

2 others from another ward

All the nurses in my ward... This was taken after work and I always changed immediately cos I felt more relieved? Haha. Look at them! They were always so happy working! Never once did I see them with a grumpy face.

And see, I'm the only Singaporean. Hoping that more will join me in the nursing adventure!!!! It's something not to be missed in this lifetime!!! =P

They had a Christmas party and potluck. We ate and ate... And ate. Cos they cooked nice stuff. This pic is kinda small but again, all are foreigners except for the 4 of us in white. Sigh...

Really quite disheartened... Anyway, I'll try my best to recruit more people? hahaha. But if it's not your calling then it's better not to.

Oh hehehehhehehhehe.

2 more dear days at St. Luke's HAHA!

I'm so happy recently... I don't really know why exactly but I think it has something to do with being a nurse???

I am loving it!!!!!

But not the waking up at 6am part... HAHA... I love the patients there, they are SO CUTE....... SO SO! LOL... Though they are very very much advanced in age, but they are so child-like in many ways.

I wanna improve in my Mandarin and dialect!!!!!! After 7 days, I can communicate better haha. But still, I don't know how to express a lot of words...

A patient was quite funny, made me laughed out loud haha! She's a Malay woman with dementia and I always like to tease her for fun haha! Today she told me she wanted a boyfriend... And asked me to find TWO for myself... Tsk tsk. LOL... She's 80+ already haha.

I talked to another patient too. She is 90, very frail and kept telling me that she was going to die cos her relatives have been visiting her. She thinks too much I think. Hmmm...

Hope my last 2 days will be good. As much as I like it, I can't wait to leave and have my (well-deserved) holiday haha...

I NEED A BREAK............................

A Day in the Hospital

 

3 more days to end of attachment. YESSS....... I can see it coming...........

Well, something interesting happened today. As my ward doesn't have any patient with Nasogastric tube (NGT), my clinical instructor brought me to another ward to witness a NGT feeding.

Later at night I was to do it myself. She showed me to the patient's bed, it was screened cos other nurses were helping him with stuff. So we waited outside.

When they were done and curtains were drawn, me and my friend were kinda appalled by what we saw. 1/4 of the patient's head was gone, so it was like a huge dent in the head. He was also contractile and kept making grunting noises.

Anyway, he became my guinea pig, quite a big challenge considering it was my first time feeding through a tube. SO what happened was... When I opened the cap at the mouth of the tube, some of the stomach's hydrochloric acid splattered on my dear face.

Ewww... I was traumatized for a while. I could SMELL it and felt a slight burning sensation in my eye but thank God it didn't go into my eyes but near it only.

Well, the procedure still had to go on! It was just mild acid so nothing to fuss over... While pouring the liquid food (something like beige-coloured milk) into the tube, the patient made a relatively loud grunt. My heart jumped cos I was so focused on pouring those stuff and there were many other things to take note of at the same time...

Phew. Thank God the feeding was done smoothly. :) It took about half an hour? After that I had to daze for a while to collect back myself hahaha.

Does it sound like fun? Hahaha~ :)

Just came back from the hospital... Nothing dramatic enough to talk about hahaha. Just that an elderly woman asked me to marry her son HAHAHAHA.

Anyway, she's demented so it's nothing alarming. My ward has a number of patients with dementia so they say (and do) all sorts of things. Haha. They simply want our attention. And it kinda sadden me that they have little family support...

I get a tingling sensation down my legs whenever I witness an injection... Anything more my legs would probably give way??? Haha hope not. How can I work in an operating theatre next time I wonder...

Can't wait for Friday 3pm to come, then I can officially have a holiday!!! It's DECEMBER...

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Yesterday!!! Had an impromptu meet-up with Jeff and a few ushers and we went SUNTEC!!! LOL... Been wanting to go cos I haven't been there for a LONG LONG time... So happy HAHA!

Aileen has EMERGED!

We went to play at the ARCADE!!! Lol fun! I think I was/am probably deprived. Haha... Friday friday...

Jeff passed me a thumbdrive with all his wedding photos and I dug out some more interesting ones hahaha.

 

HAHA! This was when I just woke up, I was the last to wake up and we had to immediately change and stuff... Lol. The paper had some lipsticks and Jeff was supposed to guess his wife's HAha. He got it!

This is totally classic. Like an advertisement picture for the camera!!! HAHA! I was pretty amused by Jeff's drawing, he was trying to draw an unicorn lol...

All the jie meis + siong dis at Jeff's house with his family! For the tea ceremony... Many people!

Meet the parent session!LOL... Kidding. Talking to his dad and godmum from HK... They are really nice and funny~

 

And the couple! Ta da! =)!

I have a thing for cameramen! I think they are so into their own world and are kinda mysterious, solitary + sentimental hahaha.

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And recently I developed a sudden liking for SOFT TOYS and everything cute hahaha. Eww...

Not hinting. LOL...

Another reason why I can't wait for FRIDAY is cos we're gg to have our first CHRISTMAS CG! Expecting lots of fun and LAUGHTER lol...

(^;^)v

Hi I'm still awake! So it's still Friday to me. TGIF!!! =)

Did my first afternoon shift today (1pm-9pm) and it was better than morning shift cos that starts at 7AM... WANT MY DEAR LIFE!!!

It was very peaceful at night, not the scary and eerie atmosphere the media always portrays a hospital to be.

It's my 4th day and I'm glad I'm gradually gaining confidence to deal with the patients.

Hopefully things will get more interesting next week.

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Have been debating within myself whether or not I should actually stop playing the cello...

*sing* Where is the passion I needed the most?

I told my teacher about this... Well actually I've stopped learning for some time already but I still regard him as my teacher haha. So I always update him/whine about my cello progress and all since he taught me from scratch...

Anyway what he told me made sense... However, unless I do something about the word imparted, nothing's gonna change at the end of the day. It was very nice of him to offer me free lessons if I'm willing to continue... Quite touched actually...

But my mind's in a disarray now... Need some time to sort/iron out my thoughts...

Perhaps I just need some sleep... Then perhaps some fabulous solutions will pop up...

Haha.

 

Today's the SECOND DAY of attachment! So far it's been great, my preceptors and fellow colleagues are nice. It was truly an eye-opener into the elderly world.

Of course there are still lots of getting-used-tos... Like familiarizing with the plethora of abbreviations used.

I was reading through the patients' (endless) records, one big stack of documents for just one patient. Every minute detail has to be accounted for!

Well, I came across this diagnosis which left me -> *???!!!*

Diagnosis: IT # S/P DHS, ARU - Now on IMC, dehydration, ? Sepsis - D TX on rocephine.

Exact words/letters written.

+ Diseases I've never known existed such as Meliodosis, Guillain Barre Syndrome?! ... Sooo... Lots of homework to do now.

St. Luke's Hospital is a community hospital where things can get really wols... Most of the patients in my ward are in their 70s and 80s. Reason for admission is mainly for rehabilitation.

Since things are wols, we have more time to interact with the patients and inevitably there are already some connectedness/bonds formed. Cos I know I'll miss them when I leave next Friday.

One thing, I don't know why I kept having homesickness while in the hospital for these 2 days... Or sometimes even when I'm away from home in other parts of Singapore. Haha unfathomable...

Oh, one of our classmates fainted this morning during a wound dressing. Was it the sight or the smell or due to low blood sugar? Not sure. A mass(ive) sms was sent to all of us to remind us to have breakfast hahaha. Will have a chance to witness a wound dressing tmr. Yay.

Everyday is unpredictable and that makes it fun. It's a tragedy that a lot of nurses are foreigners. I was the only Sgrean nurse out of 6 in my ward today. It provokes me a little but I don't know what to say about this...

Anyway...

In any way...

Where I can revamp something in the hospital... I WOULD PLAY "GREEN DAY" SONGS WHOLE DAY LONG in my ward. HAHAHA. Or at least some Christian songs.. Or the very least some soothing classical songs.... I MEAN... There should be something else in the air other than micro-organisms?!?!

Wahaha...

Must copyright my fabulous idea. Lol...

Whee... Went out with Mr G. just now. Well, I was hungry and so we went to eat while he only drank (cos he was/is on diet or sth? Lol..) What happened was, at the end Mr G. used his debit card to pay...

AND... When the waitress returned with his card, she said "THIS IS FOR YOU..."

I LAUGHED and LAUGHED so hard (till I smudged my makeup LOL...) cos I thought it was hilarious~

THIS IS FOR YOU?! It's his in the first place??? =X Ok la I was/am so mean. It wasn't exactly very funny but at that moment it just sparked something in me hahaha.

Well, sometimes I say the stupidest thing too and people laugh, but I think it's really fine haha.

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And I just hanged up a phone call with a friend... We went crazy and started singing OLD SCHOOL songs like

1) A1 - Like A Rose and Every Time
2) Tarzen?! Tarzen is handsome... Tarzen is strong...
3) I'm a Barbie girl in the Barbie world er er... LOL
4) Trademark - 2am
5) Beatles - Yesterday and Let It Be
6) Colin Raye - Love Me
7) The Way You Look Tonight
8) Adam Sandlers - Grow Old With You

At 1am?!?!?!  Waha... Secondary school is still the BEST!!!!! I remember we used to print lyrics and even filed them and brought it to school and sing!! Lol...

I was singing Trademark - 2am DURING a test cos I completed it early and was bored... Haha a friend came up to me and complained. =X And presently I still have the tendency to hum or sing whenever I feel like haha.

It's so me?!

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Having my first attachment later... Seriously don't know what to expect...

Haha, please ignore the previous post. Wrote that at a stressful moment when I was about to go for piano lesson and I felt very unprepared... Afraid that teacher would be angry!

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Friday was our subzone Ebuddy event so I was stressful too cos I felt unprepared for that too, and I had a few tasks to do... I printed the lyrics of the newer songs and sang my way home after lesson, afraid I'd forget the lyrics!

BUT!!! 

Piano lesson turned out not bad AND the event went well!!! The drama was SO FUNNY and Celine's performance too!!! Wow, it was a breakthrough for me to be hosting some items and being a Backup Vocalist for Amber and Shing!!! Dream come trueeeee!!!! Happy happy. =)

I was smiling to myself a lot when I reached home haha! Can't contain my joy and excitement. Lol...

(^;^)v

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N256 reunion! (2 months ago~) May be reunioning again next wed! Awww... Miss them! Hope that more people can come~~~

Performance @ Shangri-la (Last month)

In school! After lecture before the above performance... Lol...

12 pics suddenly to compensate for the lack of pics in my blog haha! Cos my camera's battery charger is at someone's house and the HP I'm using is not mine. So = no pics!

+ camera-shy...

Lol...

 

I'm going bonkers.

Everything that can go wrong, went wrong...

Seriously.............

2009 come quick!

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Ho Ho. Exam's over~~~ Wheeee~

Now I know why people use the word 'hotline'~ Recently (for a few WEEKs actually) a friend has been calling me to talk about some problems... (A lot in fact) Sooo... We'd talk till my HP turns HOT and dies...

AILEEN THE AUNTie AGONY?

I think there are a lot of people who have too much to say but no outlet, or rather they are selective over which outlet. So I'd say it's my privilege to be an outlet for people hehe. Again it comes with the responsibility of maintaining confidentiality.

Most of the stuff people talked about was mainly about relationships. With girlfriends, friends, family members... Why? Becos ultimately life is made up of relationships...No man is an ulu island right? And relationships are matters of the heart which is why people even bother talking and fussing over it.

So I'd say it's my privilege and pleasure (or rather something I do willingly) to be there for people who need a listening ear.

Of course, for myself... I have a few friends to hear my ventings too hahaha. They should know who they are lol....

=X

 

I woke up in SHOCK today as I thought I was late for paper when there was actually no paper......... My fear is to sleep blissfully through an exam and wake up to realize I can't take the paper anymore.

It seems like I'm the LAST person still taking exams among all my uni friends.. Having my LAST paper tmr and it's about "Ethics and Law"... LAW is the driest and boringest thing to study...

But it's an extremely important subject in the healthcare arena since life and death are in our hands. Heh heh. Treat me nice! Hahaha. Of course it's not something to be taken lightly, there're lots of responsibilities.

"Inexperience or being a learner is NO excuse." How true... It doesn't matter if you have just started for a day or a year, people's expectation from a nurse/doctor (or whatever professions) will be based on their general impression of how a GOOD nurse/doctor is supposed to be.

Well, doesn't everyone expect the best since it concerns our precious live... :)

The greatest nightmare/fear for any healthcare professional is to cause the death of someone either unintentionally/accidentally... It'd a guilt we have to carry throughout our entire life.

For example, administrating the wrong medication (You know how small/freakish/alienish/long the names can be) which can cause adverse  reactions -> death. Or fall -> pneumonia -> death. Or revealing the prognosis of a disease to an unprepared patient -> suicide.

Or many other freak accidents or mistakes...

It's daunting to just think about that... 

Really need to work in close partnership with God cos I can't do it on my own... It's the involvement of physical, psychological, emotional and spiritual strength.

And when I am weak, He is strong.

Ooo... I didn't know there are unknown visitors to my blog... I think I should write something more intelligent in future? Haha~

I'll be going to the IT fair @ Expo in a few hours' time, feeling scared!!!! Haven't been to one before and I have already heard many stories of the crowd! Gosh... I really don't like crowds...

But for the sake of my Sony VAIO!!!! I'LL GO THE EXTRA MILESSS............ (I stay in the west...) Thinking of getting an iPod too? I can't stand it without music... Has been like that since I lost my HP few months ago... Wonder if they sell HPs @ Expo?

Haha, I totally don't know what to expect over there... Shing told me to bring an umbrella to shield myself from people??? LOL... Bargain + crowd + UMBRELLA = total AUNTIE package!!!

Anyway, my cg is SO funny! HAHA! They (or rather 'We'? =P) are the cutest people ever!!! :)

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This December will be an exceptional one for me...

IT'S THE 1ST DECEMBER IN MY ENTIRE LIFE THAT I ACTUALLY HAVE EXAMS. And after exams, I will be ATTACHED.............  To ST LUKE'S HOSPITAL for 2 weeks.

My first attachment. :) Don't know what to expect too. ANYTHING can happen in a hospital. Just hope that my patients will all be safe and healthy and be discharged before Christmas!!!

And then finally, after exams and attachment, I can celebrate Christmas peacefully and happily!!! (^;^)v

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Gotta leave soon... Nervous!

I feel extremely relieved in this inappropriate exam period. Haha. Managed to get some stuff off my chest and see some true colours. Nothing pisses me off more than indecisiveness. I feel my heart leaping with joy lol...

"All things will work together for the good of those who love Him"

I believe God has greater things in store for me!  =) I wanna give someone a big hug now! Lol...

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I grabbed a book (Talent is never enough - John C. Maxwell) while on the way out yesterday. Don't like wasting time in the train staring at people~ Never did I know that when I flipped to the page I bookmarked, it spoke starkly at me. As if shouting.

"Perseverance Sustains Your Talent"

That's the title for that chapter and it brought me back on track.

"If you run every step of the race well except the last one and you stop before the finish line, then the end result will be the same as if you never ran a step."

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Off for piano! My teacher is in a bad mood recently.... Scariness + stress....

 

Me and Jeff Kor. Nice shot huh! :) So happy that he's promoted to Usher Section Leader, overseeing 40 teams (or issit 40 people?). Anyway, proud of him~ (^;^)v

Glad I bumped into him on Friday and he offered his Usher dinner =X Otherwise I'd have starved man. Bumped into him on Sunday too. And he offered to store my cello in his car so I wouldn't have to carry it all the way home... And today he passed it to me below my house~ So sweet right hahaha.

Talking about Cello... I really don't like carrying my Cello around esp in crowded places like MRT, bus, and EXPO....... Cos I don't like people banging into it or even touching it. =X Ya quite particular... And recently I'm contemplating whether or not to give up playing....... At least for the moment....

My teacher told me not to give up and not to look down on myself cos it takes YEARS to play well... Though I've heard it before, I need this kind of constant encouragement (esp from musicians) to keep me going in music........

Wish I can have lessons again...

*AILEEN HAS ASIA CONFERENCED*

I went for only 3 days.

Friday - I got really lost as I didn't know the 'strategies' of queuing. Wanted to go for 'songwriting' elective but they reduced it to 1 elective that day so I missed it.

Saturday - Had an exam in school, not bad I THINK... But not very good either I THINK... Planned to study in school, but Mr G. called and 'encouraged' me to go... Felt a strong urge to go too. Gotta carry my big and bulky dismantled hamster cage for him in the end. Lol. So mad. May your hamsters live happily ever after in that cage.

Today - Slept only for 3 hours + cos I was too troubled? Had a performance in the morning but disappointed with my playing. The stage was suddenly bright and that made it hard to focus due to my dry eyes + glare. Overall was good I heard. HP went dead after that and I got LOST again. Actually a part of me wanted to be alone... Just a tendency when I feel emo?

Very thankful that for all 3 days, I managed to sit in HALL8! And most importantly I was touched by God every day. Otherwise it'd be a futile trip and a waste of time. But I'd say my heart wasn't in AC due to the 4 impending exams in the next 2 weeks................

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I was lying on bed last night and I began to sing:

Change my heart O God
Make it ever true
Change my heart O God
May I be like You

I just kept singing in between sobs... I didn't even know how out of the blue this song popped out. But it was a good time.

"Where your treasure is, there your heart will be also."

So I guess our heart stores treasures and our brain stores information?

"Change my heart O God"

How? By taking away the 'old' treasures that we stored in the past, which may not be a treasure anymore, and make room for greater ones?

Something to think about.

 

I know it's pretty late now and I have to wake up pretty EARLY later.... BUT I gotta get some things off my chest.

Benny Hinn's session was GREAT today, no doubt. But I'm just disappointed when I saw some things. YA disappointed. Should I even be? Since it DIDN'T involve me.

But it DID affect me. To see people NOT RESPECTING the presence of God... To take their seats at expo HALL 8 FOR GRANTED when people who came from faraway had to sit in the overflow area.

That disturbed me greatly. I felt angry at those people. But I told myself there wasn't any point getting angry. I couldn't change their attitude anyway. But yes it irked me even now.

What would God feel? Probably worse than me.

Must people always learn by the hard way? Of losing something/someone first before realising?

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Ok I'm performing later so I guess I have to sleep now.

Had a great and wonderful time with God last night in my room... I know He's watching over my life and taking care of me. (Cos my allowance more than doubled this month, it just shows something) I need a black and white answer. A yes or a no. A definite answer. Cos it'll probably affect the rest of my life.

When I'm weak, You're strong
You're my feet when I can't move on...

They say, on the deathbed, the only thing that still matters are the PEOPLE who hold special places in your heart. They are probably people who stick with you till the end. At this moment, who are those people in your life? :)

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Glad I'm done with my revision for Saturday's exam. Starting on another subject now... It's SO SO hard to sit still and study!!! HAHA. So I have to study over a LONG period but still manage to study what I have to.

Ya and performance is on Sunday. I'm feeling nonchalant about it, probably cos it's still quite far to me... Thinking I still have to complete an exam first.

Past rehearsals have been quite an experience, we met Kelly Tang, the composer for that song. And there was a cellist from SSO who joined us. So both him and Elgin combined power and I feel quite stressed playing with them. Haha.

Ok la, it's good. My cello teacher once told me in order to improve I must play with better cellists though sometimes you feel like crap. For my case, it's probably hard to find worse players, so by default I'm always playing with better cellists. Ya it's good cos I find myself slowly improving each time I play. :)

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What a Friend I've found
Closer than a brother
I have felt Your touch
More intimate than lovers

Jesus
Jesus
Jesus
FRIEND FOREVER!

 

Chopin - Nocturne Op. 9 No. 2 (Played by: Li Yundi)

It gave me horripilation (refer to my 'Nerdy Box' on the right column =P) the moment he started playing... After playing, it almost seemed like he had to collect back his body, mind and soul before standing up to face the audience.

Enjoy~

 

Still needing a lot of sleep... My studies are at stake. Haha

Was just reading about Obama and one thing that touches me most is his love for his wife. It actually brought tears to my eyes... Maybe cos I'm sick and wimpy and all hahaha.

I'm glad he won the election. When I first saw him, I was hoping he could win cos he looked/s GENUINE and UNASSUMING. He has a pleasant face to look at haha. And I believe it radiates from within.

He got me interested in politics HAHA... At least a little bit... :)

 

 

Argh I'm SICK!!! Having a cold and just feeling fatigue, that I slept a lot today. Haha. My dear KJ was quite cute... "Nurse get sick too?" Lol. YES, in fact the probability is probably higher. =P

Btw, it's our exam break now. So proud of myself cos I woke up at 8 plus this morning to study!!! Lol... But HAD to lie down on my bed after every topic due to the sickness. But wasted the whole afternoon cos I was drowsy and all.....

Am now studying about the NERVOUS SYSTEM which consists mainly of the BRAIN and the SPINAL CORD... My most dreaded topic... Cos it's quite foreign to me and it contains a lot of alien terms. Neuroglia, astrocytes, oligodendrocytes..............?!!?!?!?!?!

='( !!!

Obliviously, I blurted out a question to a friend, "So what does the brain do??" Lol It sounds ridiculous right. BUT DO YOU KNOW? Haha. Gosh... Sometimes the more I study the more confused I get. Or rather, the more I study the more I find out a lot of things which I thought I know but I don't.

Test's on this Saturday and it constitutes 70% of the overall mark for that subject. I MUST do well if not it'd be a big letdown. :(

Ok I'm off...

Sigh, I broke down in school just now. And in a bus on the way home, like your typical tv serial scene. Probably overwhelmed. Disappointed with myself. 

I've seen other classmates breaking down too. And one thing about my course is, all our tutors are nurses. They are sharp to spot any anomalous behaviour and will deal with it within a short period. They are also very motherly which make us feel very 'protected' in school haha. 

Sometimes I wish I can be like other 'normal' schoolmates, where the only commitment they have is just going to school and doing well for exams. How free! How boring.

It's often heard, "there is only so much a person can do." Maybe it's true, maybe it's just an excuse not to stretch ourselves.

My tutor once said "It's either you be a good nurse, or you don't be a nurse at all." It struck me. It's true, once we set our heart to do something, it's either we do it well or we don't do it at all. At times, I wonder if I'm up to it.

Many times I ask myself, "What am I really good in?" Sometimes, I struggle to find an answer.

Am I pushing myself too hard? It just gets frustrating when you KNOW you have the potential to do something better but you're not reaching it.

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On a lighter note, have you ever watched how an AMPUTATION is done??????

I was studying with a friend in the library last night and he showed me a video on youtube, featuring an above-knee amputation............................ And insisted I should watch it since I hope to work in the operating theatre next time....... Hahaha..

It was... Erm... Interesting? I can't think of an appropriate word to describe. It was pretty much like a butchering scene, but everything was done neatly and swiftly.

Hmmm... Come to think of it, there's nothing quite disgusting or cruel/inhumane about it. They are simply procedures that HAVE to be carried out for the better of the patient. And someone, somehow, has to do it.

I hope the public has more knowledge about what goes on in a hospital before making judgment...

P.S: Erm... Maybe this is not a 'lighter note'... Lol...

It's such a relief to have handed in my essay! Such such! (^;^)v

But I know it's a short-lived one, cos end of semester exams start NEXT WEEK. 5 exams over 3 weeks...

Anyway, hope to catch MADAGASCAR 2 this week! For some reasons, I like cartoonish shows like Finding Nemo, Ratatouille... I find them v.cute and fascinating to watch haha.

And oh, yesterday it hit me, upon seeing shops displaying deco, that CHRISTMAS is coming!!!!!! It's a magical time when you can literally feel the love in the air hahaha... =) What makes it more special this year is knowing that when Christmas arrives, I'd have already gone through my EXAMS, ASIA CONF and ATTACHMENT. Yay celebrate!

Once again, I'm awake at a crazy hour, trying to finish up my essay (to be submitted at 1pm later)! I have come to realise that writing such a long essay is like fixing a jigsaw puzzle, trying to piece every part  together to form a nice (hopefully =P) and complete piece.

Strangely while doing, there is a joy in my heart. LOL.. Quite enjoy it. But it's so hard to even add 100 words hahaha. But I hope I can do up a good essay.

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I'm so happy today hahaha. Reason being my dad is going to buy me a PRINTER and HANDPHONE (thank God I didn't buy earlier =X)! And also gave me SOME $$$. =)!!!!!

Wow MIRACLE!!! Wanna walk under open heaven! Believing for a LAPTOP next......... =)

Thanks Yang for your 3 logs of SINFUL treats too. Flown specially from Down Under hahaha. I haven't eaten them and I don't dare to!!!!!! LOL... I'd probably take 1 month to finish them. =P

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I'm seriously mentally fatigue now... *sing* I'M A SURVIVOR, I'M NOT GONNA GIVE UP! Haha whatever right?

1000 words to go...... At least I have a friend and iTunes to accompany me haha.

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Ok it's nap time.

(-_-)zzZ

 

The Secret Garden - Winter Light

 

Hearts call, hearts fall,
Swallowed in the rain.
Who knows, life grows,
hollow and so vain.

Wandering in the winter light
the wicked and the sane,
bear witness to salvation
and life starts over again.

Now the clear sky is all around you
Ahh ahh
Love's shadow will surround you
all through the night.

Stars glowing in the twilight
Tell me true
Hope whispers and I will follow
Till you love me too

Chanced upon this and I think it's a magical song cos it can transport one into another world in an instant. If you've read the book "The Secret Garden", it's the perfect song for the scene when they entered the garden. Hehe.

Enjoy~

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I feel sick, or is it just a psychological effect? I love challenges, but I think I got more than I asked for.

:) ?

Wow I'm still up despite a LONG day.

Had a project presentation earlier, glad that I didn't have STAGE FRIGHT. I wasn't nervous at all and my hands were warm. Miracle! Haha. Cos say 1 or 2 years ago, I'd just freak out la.

Talked to 6 people on the phone tonight (which explains why I'm still up) and that is also a MiRaCLe considering I'm not the phone type. Slowly beginning to like it though... :)

Yet another LONG day tmr, but I am feeling good now hehe.

(^;^)v

Kailin reminded me that "those who waters will be watered himself" Wow, thanks!!! =)

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Phyzzzio test result is OUT. Kinda disappointed with it cos I didn't do well, and I wanna do well.

Anatomy test was OVER. Kinda disappointed with it cos I know I couldn't do as well as previous.

My gradessss.....

I hope I can write a good essay on TERRI SCHIAVO. Cos I like writing  GPish stuff and I wanna redeem myself. :(

Believing is seeing!!!